Whats been going on

I can't hardly wait to tell you all the things that have been a brew here at my little slice. 

First ….. I lived through Valentines day! So Win!!! This my friends is defiantly worthy of a happy dance.

2nd.... we have a new member of the family....

His name is Bud. *thank you SJ for the name. 

He is super sweet and hungry all the time so he fits right in with my two strapping boys

(the boys and I enjoying some Ice-cream)

and our very spoiled pit bull Goose.

(this is Goose, one of the mean horrible man eating pit bulls)

Bud likes to spend his days lounging in the sun, if we had any, and slopping down his warm bottles and apparently pooping in his food bowl. He also enjoys the occasional nudge in the back side of me when he thinks he needs more milk. We also play this super fun game of "run around the pin and kick up our feet and fart" it's super cool, Goose also joins in the game in the back yard and in the house and we call that the zoomies. After such play we retire to our warm bed of straw and momma closes up the pin and we all go fast asleep. 

He really is a sweet heart, and I have already grown crazy attached to the little feller.

We also have a few new things starting at the flower shop and I am super excited about that as well! I get to teach and that makes me happy. ** Plug** if you want to know more click on over to our Facebook page... https://www.facebook.com/bouquetpalaceflowers and check out the events section.... Design with Friends and all kinds of new and exciting things. Our next class is April 5th. We will be doing a fun Easter/Spring arrangement!
 

So it's been very busy round here for the past few weeks. There has been a lot of bottles, and cleaning up poop *from the cow mind you, and lots of planning and study. The boys are busy as ever in school and I can only guess that as they continue to grow *fyi I would like that to slow down please and thank you* it will only get busier. I really don't know if I just want more time as sweet little boys or I am not looking forward to buying new jeans all the time because they wont stop growing out of them, yeah it's the first and maybe a little of the last.  But really my oldest L. is now 1/2 inch taller then me. He is 12 and 5' 7 1/2" (we absolutely have to have that half inch thing on there because he is so excited about being taller then mom*insert eye roll). He is looking forward to the S.T.E.M. this year in Dallas on the University of Dallas Campus. If you don't know what that stands for don't worry I didn't either, but it is Science Technology Engineering and Math camp. So total nerd camp, and please don't be offended I am in love with the fact that my son is a total nerd. He is so smart that he just simply amazes me. It also amazes me that he sometimes can't find the mayo behind the milk jug, or he can't seem to remember to get his lunch box from his locker. I totally hold on to the absolute kid behavior because in so many other areas he is so smart, I love that he still needs his momma to remind him for the 100th time to bring his lunch box home, oh and to yell "momma loves you" real loud when I drop him off at school in the morning. I do what I can to keep him grounded and absolutely embarrassed most of the time. 

I have been blessed with these 2 wonderful and amazing boys, one is so book smart its not funny and the other is beyond creative. My sweet SJ has an imagination that just wont stop. He has created so many stories and adventures I wish I had thought to write them all down. He builds back drops for videos he likes to take and has fallen in love with the camera. *he is kind of a ham too* but he asked if he could have a real camera like the professionals use. I can't wait to get him his own camera. For now he can use mine. It's a few years old but still shoots really good photos. I feel like I won the lotto with my kids. They are my heart and as most parents would say... they are the best. Again I may be partial because they came from my personal space, but still they are pretty cool little dudes! I just have to say that over the past few years as they really have grown into their own personalities and are really finding the things they love it has been one of the biggest blessing as a mom. I really am, inspite of my previous comments about wanting them to stay small, I look forward to seeing their lives grow and the plan that God has for each of them. 

One of my goals this year was to get back to blogging more and really opening up and sharing more about life as a Christian, single mom, and florist in the hopes that there is at least one more mother out there who feels like pulling their hair out most of the time and I am not actually alone in this, and maybe just maybe we can ban together and help each other along the way. 

I have been working hard on getting back to a better me, a me I have missed for some time now. She was in there just kind of hidden under a giant pile of dirty laundry, dirty dishes and a house that desperately needed cleaned. I spent many of my married days working in the house, or on the farm thanklessly and now realize she got lost in that mess. Now as a single mother I still find myself locked away working thanklessly, bending and stretching to the will of so many others *not my kids, I would gladly do that that all day everyday for them* but for others who I shouldn't have to.... or so I thought. I spent days and nights giving and giving and was really tired of it, till something moved in my heart. I had fallen so far away from what I had been taught in Sunday school that it took a good long time for me to find my way back out of the pig pin. I realized that serving others was something I was supposed to do as a Christian. I lost sight of that, I got bogged down by the weight of the world, by the problems of my past and let that make me bitter and angry. It's taking a lot of work and prayer and tears and swallowing my pride to get to this point and Lord knows I have a long way to go. But y 'all it is worth the push.  You see I was saved a long time ago and then I let anger take control of my life. I was mad all the time, I was hurt by my past and I let it control and ruin my present. I found out that no matter how far you go Jesus is always seeking you out. He is looking for you in the storm. That spoke volumes to me. 

So this is my walk, my ugly walk if you will, back to where I need to be. Not for me but for the guy who came after me in the storm. My life is fairly ordinary and I have little to offer, but as a very smart man once said, God can take a little and make it a lot. If you don't believe me check out Mark 6:30-44. Its a fantastic account of how Jesus took very little and multiplied it into something very amazing. 

My story is probably like others, but His story is so much more. I look forward to living out His story for my life and sharing it with others so that maybe there might be one person who can have the courage to let Him make their little and turn it into so much more.