Well hello y'all.....
If you are wondering if my old blog is still up and going the answer is NO.....
I couldn't remember my password, I know shocker, and then trying to recover it was like trying to break into the NSA database. So I gave up and started a new one.
So what's been going on.....
Yeah a lot..... It seems that the last post I did was about this time last year, slacker much...... yeah I know....
So since I have left all y'all in the dark of what has been going on I shall give you an update
2015 in review.....
Jan.: I honestly can't remember other then it was a month of failed resolutions and one huge realization that my life was taking a huge turn. Started the last semester of my collage life.
Feb.: My failing marriage came to a head so to speak. It was not a fun time for our family. Signed the paperwork on a new house for me and the boys.
March: Attempt to save my failing marriage but that went down like the Hindenburg. Started a new job. Quit said job because I hated it.
April: Finally got settled in to a strange new life in a new house. Started a new job and loved it. Started taking care my shit as a single mom. New life for me and the boys.
May: Graduated from Collage after a crazy long and insane semester. Still adjusting to being a full time working single mom.
Met a new someone......
June: Started to love life with my new found freedomish..... being a single mom is very different from the life I had lived for the past 10 years.
July: Fell in love, or so I thought with said new someone! That was fast, way to fast. Just for the record..... not sure I loved anyone except my kids, yeah not even myself.
August: Turned 35! Discovered a odd lump in my abdomen.
September: Continued to fight with said new someone, and my babies daddy. Men drove me crazy! Had a surgery to remove said lump and kinda freaked myself out.
October: Learned my landlord had not been paying the mortgage of the house I was living in. Got a notice from the bank to let me know that I would be relocating in 20 days because they had taking the house from the landlord! Freaking awesome!
November: Moved in with said new guy...... again don't judge! It took about a week to realize this was a huge mistake and the beginning of the end of a new relationship. Started looking for a new place to live! Awesome! Had an okay Thanksgiving! Began to give up all around.
December: Finally found a new place for me and the boys, started a new job and finally lost all hope of shit ever going right. Till someone from the past sent me a text that I found to make my heart flutter again! WHAT?!?!?!?!?! Had a wonderful Christmas in my new place with the boys. Life seemed to had kicked me down far to much and finally got fed up with the way shit has gone down.
So here we are back at the beginning of a year.
There was a lot of giving up..... giving in to things that are out of my control and what feels like rock bottom.
Now you see on facebook all the up lifting and loving inspirational quotes and the only one I could even come close to relating to is...... shit happens..... I know it seems to sum up the entirety of my 2015. How ever...... good things did come out of the shit of a year.
Like....
Learning that I am stronger then I thought I was.
I have a crazy life, never dull but always exciting.
I am not good with rushing into things.
I didn't actually die from a broken heart, felt like it, but it didn't happen.
My kids make me the happiest I could have ever imagine.
I was living a life of mediocrity.....
I hate mediocrity!
So all in all looking back this last year has opened my eyes, to what I want in life, for me and for my kids.
Now this year.....
Who the hell knows what it will bring but I don't even want to begin to guess.
I know one thing....
I am going to focus on my boys of course.... but also on me.
I made a decision to........
1) hike the PCT (Pacific Coast Trail) but only part of if for now.
2) love me again.
3)love life again.
I am going to rediscover me, and all the things that make me..... well me!
I am going to open my heart to love again, I am going to open my life to love again and not let the past cripple me in the now.
I am looking forward to a new year filled with adventure and laughter and love! Love for me, my boys, and who knows!
I do know this.....
This last year has showed me one un-denying fact..... life is short. If you love someone tell them, if you want something then go for it now not tomorrow not next week or next month do it NOW, if you are hurt or mad at something or someone then SAY IT, tell them they need to know that what they are doing is painful to you. They may never know most people don't read minds and if you want it to change in life or relationships communication is the key! If you want to see change in your life.... then do something to change it, because no one is going to do it for you. And mostly be just be HAPPY! Don't look for someone to make you happy, you need to learn to make yourself happy, until you do you will never find happiness!
So there it is....
My last year and the beginning of my new year. I can't wait for this year!
So y'all enjoy your day however makes you happy, if that's staying in your pj's all day then rock your pj's...... if it's starting the new year cleaning out the past year then rock that too!
For me I will be cleaning, doing laundry, going to the gym, (yeah I started that a few months back and I love it just btw!!) and spending time with two of the most wonderful little stinkers that I know!
Happy New Year and blessing to you all!
