The Voice of Truth

It's 4 am and I have found myself up all night again. It's been a crazy week of going non stop, and I guess tonight was no different. I would like to say it's the first time in a long time that this has happened but it would be a lie. It happens more and more. I feel like I have so much to say and yet no clue how to say it. It would be great if I could at least get things all in order. 

I find I have been spending a lot of time just wondering if what I know I have been called to do is going to cause problems with my kids, or if they will understand. I know it's just the enemy trying to get me down but it's really been on my mind. The other day as if out of no where something happened that seemed to set my mind at ease. The boys and I have spent the last several days in Dallas for my oldest son's S.T.E.M. National Youth Leadership camp, and my youngest and I spent some time just seeing the sights of Dallas. We had an amazing time, and Sam and I got to spend some one on one time with each other. 

 Proud mom moment!! He is growing to fast!!! 

My Sweet Sam loves him some Lego's!!! 

As we were on the way back from Lego land one afternoon, something happened and it really hit me right in the face.... 

It was hot, as seems to be the case in Dallas in late June, and we had spent some time playing in Lego Land and got on the road to "home" at the wrong time we had hoped to. In hopes to miss some traffic (as if you really could) we wanted to either get out early or stay a little extra longer to avoid as much of rush hours (yes I said hours, it seems rush hour lasts a few hours) as we could. However we found ourselves enjoying the late afternoon rush of folks heading home. As we made our way along, I hear Sam humming a tune that sounded very familiar but I couldn't place it. So I listened a little closer and finally asked him what he was humming. 

I wasn't ready for what he said.... "ummmm... mom... it's that truth song we listen to".... ummmm... okay... So I said ..."can you sing a little of it because I can't place it"... 

And he starts in...." The voice of truth says 'do not be afraid' ...."

AHHHH.... That one....

I said..." Oh ok bud.... that's a good song"  He says ..."yeah mom the Bible says.. don't be afraid..."!

What kind of timing He has. 

I just drove along feeling like I was going to just bust out and cry right there in the middle of downtown traffic. You see, I have been blasted with how much it seems I have failed at so many things over the years. How can I think I could do any of it right. It felt like every turn I made it was the wrong one. But sitting there, driving in that hot late afternoon Dallas traffic my sweet 10 year old son was delivering a message right to me. Horns going, cars every where, we hadn't turned any music on so to make sure I could hear the GPS just fine and I would make no mistakes getting us back, and it seems the GPS was not what I needed to hear. 
We made it "home" that afternoon just fine, and as we walked up the stairs he turned and looked at me and said.... "Hey mom.... you are the best mom ever, I love you.... oh and mom... we all have bad days, sometimes lots of bad days together but it's all going to be ok... don't worry...don't be afraid....", he smiled the sweetest smile and turned and ran on up the stairs ahead of me ready to get back in the A/C and something to eat. 

I was in awe of how perfect his words were right then, and I stood there for a moment and smiled. 

As soon as we got in the house, he was off to watch TV as he wait for something to eat. 

I don't think he will ever fully understand the gravity of what had just happened. My little boy delivered a message that I needed more then words can express. 

I think it just goes to show that the Lord can speak to us in many different ways, and different times when we least expect it. He can speak to us, and through us,  if we are just open to hear. 

Phillip Yancy said.... "I can not control the voice of God or how it comes. I can only control my 'ears'- my readiness to listen and quickness to respond."


I can't say that I am always open to hear like I should be, but I am working on it. I hope that as I go on down this road my ears will be open more and more and He will come easier to hear. I pray that everyone will hear and be open to His word. I also pray that my sweet boy will never lose the ability to deliver His message, and will always be open to His word. That day my sweet 10 year old boy preached to his momma in a way no one else could. 

I just had to share what a beautiful moment I was blessed with and hope that maybe the words of a 10 year old boy might ring through to someone else.... "I love you... we all have bad days, sometimes lots of bad days together but it's all going to be ok... don't worry...don't be afraid...."! 

Here is the song, just in case anyone needed to hear this too!!!